I lost my beloved Aunt Roxy this past week. She was my aunt, godmother, spiritual mentor and wise woman elder. She was there for me when I started going through my consciousness shift 10 years ago, back when the rest of my family didn’t understand. She supported me, provided insight and encouraged my deeper explorations into the reality of life. I could not have gone through it without her.
Her very last email to me was about this blog. On Wednesday night at 11:00PM, she sent me an email saying, “What a grand adventure, Lisa. I look forward to following your blog.”
Then she went to bed and died during the night. I got her email the next day after she had passed but before I knew she had passed.
I called Carrie Shubert www.carrieshubert.com a psychic who works with the police to help solve murders and who helps people connect between the worlds. Carrie said things that blew my mind. She described my aunt perfectly, her hair style, that she had a bad back, and had a dog. She described her living room and said Roxy was telling her that she knew I was going to write about her. Aunt Roxy showed her who she was with “over there” and Carrie described my grandmother and described and even said the name of my other aunt who died 5 years ago. Roxy said she would come visit me and my cousins and send us messages.
What was really weird was that Roxy showed an image of the two of us standing together with her left arm over my shoulder facing out into the future like we were going on a grand journey or adventure…just the very same words she had used in her email to me the night she died. So one minte she is alive writing me an email about a grand adventure and then two days later she is dead, but communicating the same thing! That’s weird.
Even weirder still was she told me things I didn’t even know about that were later confirmed. Roxy showed Carrie a green car from the 50s and this had no meaning to me until I told my dad a few days later. He said he taught Roxy how to drive on the first car he had ever bought, a green 1951 Dodge. He had just bought it and only had it for a day or two and Roxy ran it in to a tree trying to learn how to make turns. She cried and cried, feeling so bad about ruining the car. There was obviously a strong emotional attachment to that car, the bond of her big brother teaching her how to drive in it, then wrecking it and feeling so bad about ruining his newly bought first car.
When I first got the news that she had died, I was in shock. Then I cried for a day and then I got mad and irritated. I am still in this sort of irritated place, feeling ripped off at the way this life and death situation is set up. I totally know my aunt is still around, my own experiences around past lives, life plans, our consciousness existing before we are born and after we die, and the reading with Carrie all confirm for me that she is still here but just not in her body. So that’s fine.
And I also know she was prepared and OK to go if she had to, looking forward actually to seeing my grandma and aunt. And she also really wanted to go peacefully in her sleep, which she did. So that’s all fine too.
But what is really bugging me is that while she can see me and send weird supernatural messages, I can’t see her. Sure, I can feel her with me, but I want to pick up the phone and call her. I don’t need her in a body, but I want her to be accessible.
I wonder if maybe we have just not yet discovered some extended human capacity that allows us cross-dimensional communication. Just think about cell phones and what a miracle they would be to someone 200 years ago. Back when my ancestors came from Europe before there were phones, they basically had to accept that the person was dead to them except the occasional letter. They surely never expected to hear the voice of their departing loved ones again. And now we talk on cell phones across continents. We have Skype and webcam calls.
What if we could apply telephone technology in our heads, find some sort of transmitter and receiver in our brains to cross a communication divide that used to be physical but is now energetic. Since we would not be depending on the physical vibrations of sound to bounce off our eardrums to hear their physical voice, maybe we would “hear” them as thoughts or mental pictures or something. Now how to be able to determine that we are in fact “on the line” with them rather than just making stuff up, I don’t know, there would have to be some sort of test or experiment just like Alexander Graham Bell and the first telephone. But I think the basic premise that it is possible is our first step. I wonder why we aren’t looking into that more.
Everyone deals with this, the death of a loved one, wanting to somehow still be in contact and having experiences of actual communication in some form. Why do we just accept that once someone is no longer physical, that’s it? What if we could improve our ability to have inter-dimensional after-death communication?
So, I’m going to assume that while we have not yet perfected the means, the basic ability is somehow at our disposal. Since Aunt Roxy said she was looking forward to following my blog and talked about it being a grand adventure both before she died and after, I assume then that she is reading this post somehow through the dimensions. I’d like to take this opportunity then to say, “Aunt Roxy, I love you. I am going to miss you and I am going to miss talking to you on the physical phone. But I know you can send messages and that you can hear me too in some way and I look forward to that grand adventure we will share together between the worlds…”
Lisa – I lost my beloved Uncle Gene this past week and I too am grieving. But I have had many experiences of communicating with those who are no longer in a body that I am comforted believing we never lose touch with loved ones.
One New Year’s Eve I was alone in a big house and invited my departed family and friends to join me. Their energy in the room was palpable. Each one was in a different chair and their presence was loving and playful. It felt like a gift to be surrounded by so much love.
Although I don’t hear actual words in communication, I do get images and sensations during contact. While writing a screenplay about after-life experience I was stuck in a section and asked for help from two departed loved ones. The images I received were beyond anything I could have imagined. And I felt their presence with me…guiding me.
Lisa, I look forward to hearing more about your adventures with your Aunt Roxy.